Patience!

This morning I almost burst out my anger to my cousin. Well, we asked for her help to take care of my Mom since my aunt is taking care my Dad in the hospital. It turn out, she has to gome home for a short while. I was surprised of course. I mean, is okay if she need to go home to check on things but can she and my Mom let me know about it last night???? So, a few minutes before I go to the office, I have to prepare my Mom's morning drink and her breakfast. The cereal is ready to be served and just need to be poured with hot water. I called my driver and ask his help to stay with my Mom until my cousin got back from her home. Then , on 09.30 when I called home to ask my Mom whether she already eaten her breakfast, she told me that we run out drinking water at home. Means, it need to be boiled first. I was so pissed at first. Thinking, why can't she just make sure everything is okay before leaving. But then I think... Well, maybe next time I should be the one who check on everything at home. My cousin only there to give us help and does not mean I can count everything to be done perfectly on her or on everybody else.

It is the reality that starting to sink on me that we truly can not rely on anybody but ourself... Be thankful when someone giving out help and do not throw everything on them...

I guess patience is a virtue... a bit hard to learn and apply in the daily life, but worth it...

Not that again!

When smone asked me with a worrying look why I am still single, I am still be able 2 smile. But when he continue with a disapproving look that as an Christian woman I hv an obligation to build my own family, in front of my sick Father in the hospital, it kinda make me speechless. I mean, again? Maybe I should place an add to find any guy to get married as it seems me being single irritated lots of people. Ha3x

Tiresome

The year 2008 is really a tough one. Not only I hv 2 face the fact that i am totally clueless with my future (job, love, life), I hv 2 deal with both of my parents being sick. Smtimes I wonder why all of these are happenning 2 me. But then again, I could never got any satisfying answer. I do not think I am allowed 2 ask 4 better future. I am tired, sad, defeated, frustrated, giving up.

Hospitalized

2day my Dad is admitted to hospital since he accidentally broke his bone in the left arm. There is also a fracture in the hips. But the doctor said the one in the arm is in critical condition and need 2 b operated. All I can do is hoping 2 c him get better soon.